“Real As* Nig**” song by Miguel

“Have you, you ever (Have you ever, ever)

Ever fucked with a real nigga (yeah)

Real ass nigga before?

I know you’re so tired of

Feeling like you deserve better

You need a real ass nigga like me, yeah

Like me, baby”

This song perfectly describes how I feel. Fast forward or go backwards 🤷🏿‍♀️After Captain got me from Utah. He drove my car to his apartment in Seattle. He was feeding me three burgers a day so I could get my weight up. He was making me drinking protein shakes. He got my weight up in no time. He gave me weed and leafs everyday as soon as I woke up. He was trying to get me right. But then here comes the devil.

We was doing are thing. I’m writing lawyers, letters, grants, doing what I had to do to get my daughter back. Captain was also having a similar but more deteriorating custody case. Captain is an African American man who had a baby with a caucasian

punk rock girl( surprised me this was not even his type & he’d always been so careful) anyways captain had a traumatic childhood. His mom was addicted to crack. She would often leave him and his older brother to go around the streets looking for her vice. He often went hungry and without proper showers. I saw captain. We grew extremely close upon my release. He really opened up to me. I had known him since I was 16 years old. But now at age 29, I found him; he gave me the key to his soul! I was learning him. He was raped by a foster mother at age 8. So he had some issues. But he was my friend before anything. I wanted to help heal his heart. I want to heal everyone’s heart. We are all broken, fragile, delicate souls just yearning for love. Most of us, needed this love from our parents. But didn’t get it. So we may end up like my African American king who I refer to as captain because he saved me. He came for me. This man took a very expensive flight and long 5 hour shuttle bus just to come get me and my car. He’ll always be my captain. I still love you. Just different. I see you. I was paying attention to you. I am coming for you. You are a king. Thank you for reminding me that I am a queen. I lost my crown but you helped me to find it 🔐❤️🙏🏿🌈😉👸🏽👑

Anyways, captain and I was standing on business as you young people say today. Then here he comes. My ex goes out of his way as indicated by the message to find captain on Facebook. But not just captain, he found captain’s baby mother. Then my ex starts getting involved in their custody situation.

So temporarily I had to leave captain because we’re from foster care. We’re are African American queens and kings. And we don’t play about our seeds. So I left. Because I saw that my ex was on some other shit.

I’ll never understand a person who seeks revenge on someone. I’m not like that. I’ve been done wrong. Dirty! Left to die! And yet I just move on with my life. You don’t fuck with me anymore. Cool ✌🏾👋 I’ll just go do like I did and get a new degree to figure out where I went wrong with that relationship. I don’t have time. That’s a full time job trying to destroy someone life. The first thing I hate to waste is money. The second thing I hate to waste is time!

Pt. 2 Coming Soon

P. S. Captain we’re going to get both our daughters back in the end. “These enemies may have bruised our heels. But at the end of the day, we are going to crush the head of the serpent that is trying so hard to kill and destroy us ( Pastor Sarah Jakes Roberts; you’d really like her🔐)